Bali

I finally considering to move to Bali, seriously!

Even they have the money you need in your life, never sell your soul to them!

Kayanya belum pernah seumur hidup saya memikirkan negara ini se-intens sekarang. Satu bulan terakhir semakin gila saja. Banyak sekali kejadian yang berada diluar nalar yang terjadi dengan negara ini. Bukan hanya saya yang menganggap ini ganjil.

Saya sudah tidak perlu me-list down kembali disini. Semua ada di TV, online media, printed newspaper, everywhere... The things are too ridiculous to digest.

Yang saya takutkan hanyalah terjadinya kerusuhan, demonstrasi besar2an dan penggulingan kekuasaan secara paksa. Saya tidak ingin kembali kemasa rusak parah nya perekonomian Indonesia di tahun 1997-1998. Kenapa juga saya mikirnya jadi tua begini ya...

Tapi ya memang begitulah. Kalau negara ini ribut terus kapan mau maju. Sementara negara lain sibuk meng improve, kita malah masih membentuk. Ribut lagi, kacau lagi. Yang punya duit merasa bisa membeli jiwa manusia. Berkuasa sesuka jiwa.

Sementara rakya biasa, karyawan, pekerja, buruh, petani, tukang parkir, sopir, penjaga toko, pengusaha kecil tetap begini2 aja siapapun penguasanya.

So please dont sell your soul for them. Stay calm, work as usual. Jangan terpengaruh oleh provokasi mereka. Kita bertanggung jawab untuk kehidupan kita. Mereka tidak peduli.

I miss you

The last few days were even worst than before. I miss him too much. I might die because of it. What can I say. All memories coming back again and again. I feel really connected to him. Its like he tried to contact me. We communicate in our way as we always did.

Please come again, even only in my dream.

The Dash

Regrets? I have a few. Too much worrying. I worried about finding the right man and having children, being on time, being late and so on. It didn't matter. It all works out and it would have worked out without the worries and the tears.

If I would have only known then what I know now. But, I did and so do you. We're all going to die. Stop worrying and start loving and living.

It's not the date you were born, or the date you died, that really matters. It's "the dash" between those years and what you do with it, to make a difference with your life.

Berapa lama ? Berapa yakin ?

Sepuluh tahun tidak membuat seorang laki2 merasa yakin apakah ini wanita yang tepat untuk dinikahi. Sepuluh tahun ternyata masih membuat wanita butuh untuk diresmikan diatas selembar surat.

Well, itu hanya cara yang menunjukkan bahwa mereka tidak berjodoh.

Yes, I miss you !

Eventhough you left me six years ago, I still feel your love around me. You are around me in every of my heartbeat.

In sickness, sadness, and happiness, you are the only person I care of.

I had tried to let you go and I had tried to move on. I can't. After years of trying, I decided not to try anymore. Just let your love grow in me, around me, with me...

I will be right here waiting for you. Having you in my life for more than 13 years now and until the end of time. And when the time comes, I smile again :)

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It would be nice if they ask me first,"Do you have any plan for tomorrow? If you don't, come with us to Bogor".

But the things are, they always say,"Tomorrow we go to Bogor (or elsewhere)". I have no choice.

Sad but true. This way I miss my koko so very much.