I spent more than 20 hours working a day. My working environment is fun, yet not healthy. Dark, need a lamp right to my desk. When you walk around the desk line along the curve side of the wall, you will smell ashes. Try to swap it with your fingers. Dirty. Even if you are not a smoker, you'd better start now, otherwise you will become a victim of other's enjoyment.
I love people around me. They are fun. I don't mind working late. I don't mind working until morning comes. But, will I get better healthy environment and better pay? Hope so *crossing my finger*
I arrived home at 3 in the morning. Still so many things to get done. Overwhelmed.
What would I do then? While trying to figure it out, my other mind strucked by another thinking. Mmm, how I miss him. I wish I could just turn back the time to when I was really really busted by my job, and he picked me up at the office, we went out for meal and go massage. I smile. And suddenly I realize that I have to shut that memory down.
I slip into my bed. Setting alarm by my bedside. I still have 2 hours before geting myself back into bustle hustle life. But so hard to shut down my mind. I closed my eyes but I still see a tv screen in my head. My one part of life comes and there's another one.
Suddenly my alarm is ringing. Damn. I had to get up now.
Thinking again. How can I manage my mind and my brain not to think of anything at least for a little while.
